Jackson is now nearly 4 weeks old. Wow, now that time went quick! I have taken so much in with him. I hold him, stare at him and am just amazed. With such an odd, emotional pregnancy - his arrival has revived my soul. I instantly went from darkness to the brightest of days. I am so in love with being the mommy of two wonderful children. Without a doubt, it's my purpose. The silly things that cluttered my mind before are now just after thoughts. It's clear what's important and what's not. I hope I can keep this new mindset.
Jackson went to the doctor last Wednesday to be weighed and was finally back up to his birth weight. He hadn't gained weight at the last appointment and had been spitting up after eating and choking with no connection to eating. They said it's acid reflux. We've made some adjustments and he seems to be keeping more down, so I'm hoping to see more gains in the next couple of weeks. Eating has been trial and error - but we are surviving it. The first couple days of nursing was a killer - I ended up so sore that I couldn't even think of letting him nurse. We took a break and I pumped and gave him milk in the bottle....and so has been our routine since. I tried to nurse a couple of times after that, but after about 15 minutes I was cringing from the pain again. On top of that, I never could tell how much he was getting and he always seems hungry right after. I had been exclusively pumping since, and then decided to supplement formula every other bottle because all I was doing was sitting at that pump! I was ready to stop pumping and just formula feed and so that's what we decided was best. I can not explain the amount of guilt that comes with that decision though. I LOVE providing him with my milk and it feels so good to know I can. It feels so selfish to give it up just because it's an inconvenience at this point.
Wyatt began summer vacation Friday. He has been counting the days! We put up a small pool in the backyard for him and his friends to lounge in. My mission is to keep him MOVING this summer, less electronic stimulation (2 hour limit began today!!) and less boredom eating. We will be doing some form of exercise each day too. Starting today we will go to the library once a week for a group reading and craft project. I have also been researching free fun things to do in central Illinois and hope to have a couple adventures thrown into our schedule as well. The thing I look forward to most is being at home, in my own backyard with my boys. I have been thinking about my summer bucket list and hope that we can find a lot of interesting things to do together. This may be the only summer I will ever have home with the two of them.
I have been so ready to start running again. I even called the doctor's office to ask if it's ok - only to be told NO. Ugh - imagine that - 2.5 weeks postpartum and they said no! haha. Oh well, I can wait. So far my days have been spent feeding my little olive, changing him...and napping. Those naps are amazing. I love being snuggled up with him, smelling his perfect little self, hearing his little sounds - even those little farts are darling. Most people say they stay at home the first few weeks or months - I have to say we have been everywhere!! I am consciously making an effort NOT to leave on some days.
Well - here it is - a brief intro to my new blog... hopefully I will be inspired to keep up with it! I haven't written in so long! It's hard to find the time to write that corresponds with the mentality of wanting to write!!
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